THE REMORSEFUL BILLIONAIRE

Judith’s POVProperty of Nô)(velDr(a)ma.Org.

Constantly, feeling scared for some unknown reasons, I became more sensitive than ever. For no tangible reason, I kept feeling insecure and sometimes trembling like a leaf. I grew suspicious of everything, and everyone especially strangers. At this point, I pray I don’t develop a heart attack because the rate at which my heart raced was alarming.

An unknown feelings within me that Felix hasn’t given up yet. He is so much blinded by rage that he won’t stop until he got what he wanted.

Despite the hurtful things Nathan has done, I never cease to love him. The feeling has extended so much that I missed him badly and also dreamt about him occasionally. The thoughts of him lingered in my head day or night.

Downcast and unsure of what to do to make the thoughts go away, I vowed never to get back with him no matter how much or how long the feeling lingered on.

I ran my hands through my hair and walked outside to the balcony to enjoy the sun that shone brightly.

My mind awhirl with thoughts of my relationship and wedding.”Maybe I’m not meant to marriage after all. It has failed twice, and two times is enough for me to know I’m not cut out for it,” I said as I took a deep breath and gazing up to the sky.

It was weekend. The plan was for me to take a rest since I have been so worn out during the week. Tending to my kids and job was no easy task especially now that I am not all myself.

I ventured into the kids room, woke them up, bathed them and get them dressed before retreating to the kitchen to prepare breakfast.

****Three hours later****

After breakfast, I headed to my room and managed to doze off for two hours. The ringing of the door bell shook me out of my sleep. I hesitated for a moment pondering who it could be. Sighing, I reluctantly stood up to go get the door.

“It had better be someone important who had disrupted me from my peaceful sleep. I hope it’s not Nathan or Felix. I don’t have the energy to deal with those two and I don’t want to lose the peace I managed to acquire today,” I said, walking towards the door, constantly rubbing my eyes, trying to keep myself awake.

I unlocked the door and it was Felix “Holy shit,” I cursed immediately I sighted him.

“What are you doing here?” I yelled and regretted it almost immediately. The kids were around and I don’t want them to hear my angry shouts.

“Hi Judith,” he said and smiled awkwardly. I keep quiet and just nodded. I managed to calm myself as I don’t want to get too worked up and say hurtful things to him.

“Thank goodness, he is here. Today I’m determined to a lengthy discussion with him and make him see reasons why he needs to get over his obsession with me,” I thought as I moved away from the entrance and gestured for him to come in.

He glanced at me completely taken back by my action. He was surprised I would let him in easily despite the hurtful words he had spewed. “He knew I wouldn’t let him in but he still came anyways. He doesn’t have any sense of shame, does he?” I thought as he came in, and I shut the door behind him.

I dashed to the kitchen and served him a cold drink not without sending the kids off to their room and warning them not to come out. As soon as he came in, Oliver and Olivia both ran up to me, and tightening their grip on my hand, hoping they were protecting me from him.

He greeted them and gave them a smile but my kids frowned at him still, with the determination to fight him if he tries anything. “Those little cuties. I’m sure they already tagged him as a bad person that makes mommy cry,” I thought, smiling at the dramatic kids before me.

He took the drink and thanked me before sipping a little. The room became silent as we both stared downward, avoiding each other’s glance. I looked at him, perceiving he had something to say but he doesn’t know how to go about it or was contemplating whether saying it or not.

With his undecided action, I raised my head and decided to speak first.” Felix, I know we’ve come a long way together, and I want you to know that I wasn’t happy that we didn’t end up together. I had a hard time during that period, and I won’t be here if not for my mom and Vanessa,” I said, fixing my gaze on him and ensuring he was listening to me.

With his concentration on me, I continued “The outcome of our relationship pierced my heart, but what can I do? It wasn’t our fault. We were surrounded with circumstances we had no control over. I really want us both to move on and leave the past behind us. I’m not fine Felix but I’m trying to. I need space to gain my clarity of mind,” I sobbed, tears forming in my eyes but I’m determined not to let them drop.

“But I love you so much Judith. You know it was Nathan we broke us. Let’s forget the past and move on like you say,” he spoke in a soothing and gentle tone, moving closer and taking my hands. I didn’t take off the hand, hoping it would help him come to terms with me.

“I want to move on with you by my side,” I’m going to love, respect and protect you always. We can jet off to America and start anew there,” he said and I realized there was no end to this.

“Felix,” I said, I drawing back from him and taking off his hands. “You don’t get me. I don’t want to be in any relationship again, be it dating or marriage. I just want to be alone, taking care of my kids, and living life to the fullest,”

“But if was Nathan, you would have fallen into his arms, huh?” He spoke in a harsh and deep. I looked at him, and he was emotionless.

Shocked about his proclamation, I was Speechless, unsure of what he wanted to hear.

With the realisation that all I told him has fallen on deaf ears. I decided to confront him about the spy on him.

“And is that why you’ve been spying on me,” I asked, angrily, the complete opposite of how I had spoken to him earlier.

“A spy? Why would I do that? He fired back immediately.

“Then, how come you know too much about me?”

“Why do you think I know so much about you? I know nothing, dear Judith,” he said with an evil smirk, extending his hands to push my hairs away from my face. I shove away the hands and sighed- I didn’t want him to touch me at all. Just his presence sent disgust and cold shivers through my body.

“Dear, Judith, You just have to marry me and there’s no two ways about it, unless the world will know the truth about the biological father of your little cuties,” he threatened.