Chapter 24 I'm so tired that I can’t love you
Chapter 24 I'm so tired that I can’t love you
After running through countless red lights, Ryan hurried to the hospital,and asked where Nikki was
whoever he met. Ryan calmed down until he reached the operating room, , staring at the door of the
operating room with a pale face. It seemed that the surrounding air were still frozen, and the steps
under his feet became so heavy.
A cry of baby made Ryan awoke. He stayed close to the door with comfort and expectation. This is a
baby of Nikki and him. But Ryan was afraid again when he thought of his cruelty before. How should he
treat Nikki and his baby. As a father, he was incompetent.
The operating room light went out,then Ryan shouted, "Nikki, Nikki!"
The doctor came out and saw Ryan asking, "Who is her family member?" Text © 2024 NôvelDrama.Org.
“I am, I am!”Ryan answered nervously.
"The baby survived. But for Mrs.Carson, we did our best." The doctor said in frustration.
Ryan stiffened. He grabbed the doctor's collar, and shouted, "Why don't you save Nikki? why don't you
save her? Hurry up and save her!"
"Sir, you can look at her in her last time." The doctor said.
"No, go to save Nikki. Nikki won't die. I can give up my life to Nikki, and I'm willing to die for her!" Ryan
cried, gritted his teeth, and grabbed the doctor not to let him go.
When facing the death, Ryan was powerless. At this moment, he hated himself so much. He preferred
to give up his life to Nikki rather than let Nikki leave him.
All of them exclude Joe rushed to hospital. Joe pulled Ryan away and said. "Ryan, calm down."
"Ryan, if you are a little nice to Nikki and not so cruel to her, she won't be so painful!" Shane couldn't
help crying and sobbing.
"Nikki, here I am, here is your Ryan."
Ryan pushed them away and went to the operating room. Ryan watched Nikki, who was dying on the
operating table, crying like a child. He knelt in front of Nikki, and regretted that he didn't accompany her
and let her go through the most painful time.
Ryan held Nikki's hand. He felt scared when he touched her cold hand. "Nikki, I'm here. I'm sorry, Nikki,
I love you. No matter if I have or have no memory, I love you all the time. Please be alive and give me a
chance to make atonement. If you are gone, how should I live?”
Nikki closed her eyes and heard Ryan's remorse. Her tears overflew from the corner of her eyes. She
only had the faint breath left, and opened her eyes tiredly. She could saw Ryan's handsome face with
tears. He did cry for her, but everything was too late.She had been so tired of loving Ryan in her life
that she can't afford it.
"Ryan." Nikki said weakly.
"I'm here." Ryan held Nikki and kissed her forehead."I remember, I remember it. Please, don't leave
me."
Nikki touched Ryan's face.She wanted to touch him before,and wanted Ryan to hold her. There was no
regret if she could die in his arms.
"I'm so tired that I can't love you." Nikki choked. "I wanted to let you and Iva get married in peace. But
you still know it now. Ryan, I am satisfied if I could die in your arms. But please, please be nice to our
baby. "
"Don't say anything. I'll call a doctor to treat you. You won't die."Ryan said.
Nikki shook her head and said, "I don't blame you. This is destined. If there is a future life, I hope we
will not meet again.Please let me go and let you go."
Ryan held Nikki's hand tightly. "No, Nikki, give me another chance. It doesn't matter if you don't love
me. Let me love you. All the injuries you have suffered could be revenged from me. This time I won't let
you go.”
Nikki smiled. It didn't matter because she was relieved and didn't regret it, just wishing he could live
well and be happy no matter who he was with.
"No, we two are square!" Nikki refused.
Her hand slipped from Ryan’s body. Ryan was shocked, then he grabbed her hand and put it on her
face, "Nikki, you are not dead. I know you are still alive. I am wrong. Please wake up, I will never leave
you again in my life. Nikki, wake up.”
Ryan buried in Nikki's arms and cried. He couldn't forgive himself in his life. How could he do such a
stupid thing to ruin his favorite woman by himself.
“Nikki ”
His sad and desolate shouts rang through the hospital.
Ryan couldn't believe the distance between Nikki and him was so short. He couldn’t believed that he
was separated from Nikki when he recovered his memory.
Ryan returned home while he was drunk. Opening the door, he knew that there was no Nikki in this
house, but Ryan still shouted, "Nikki, I am back."
"Ryan." Iva walked closely.
Ryan looked up at Iva and sneered. It was the biggest joke he saw.
Iva took his hand and but was thrown away by Ryan. Ryan said coldly, "Iva, what a good trick are you
playing. You pretended to be Nikki and stay with me. Now she is dead. Are you satisfied?"
Iva burst into tears and denied, "No, Ryan, I love you so much. I don't know that Nikki has advanced
stomach cancer."
Ryan hated Iva extremely but even hated himself. For Iva, how much terrible thing did he do to Nikki.
"Don't say you love me. Do you know how much I hate you now? I can keep my breath just because I
haven't calculated our issues yet. Do you want to go and stay with Nikki? Why don’t we all go with
Nikki?”