Chapter 56
Chapter 56
Dinner was served to us all. I sat at Brennon’s table with Ryder and Rita by my side. Brennon and his men were sitting opposite of me. I looked up and felt someone watching me. When I looked around, my eyes landed on Candace. She was sitting at a table, surrounded by friends who were chatting amongst themselves. She wasn’t paying them any attention though, as she was watching me and my movements. I saw her eyes glance over me. When our eyes locked, she looked away from me for just a moment before turning her attention back to me with a smile. I gave her a small smile and a little wink.
My Lycan seemed to always stir in her presence, weirdly enough. I didn’t know why. He has been quiet lately and has not really spoken to me in the last few days. I have to force him to shift into our beast form and then it is like he only does half the work that is needed. But Candace makes him feel more like his old self. It is like she is bringing him out of the dark and into the light again.
I wasn’t sure how long I had been watching her but Ryder noticed and cleared his throat. I looked over to him and he gave me a half smile and glanced over in her direction. “She is pretty,” he said as he took a sip of his drink.
“She is and she smells fantastic too.” I took a bite out of my chicken on my plate, looking away.
“Is she your mate?” He asked me and I let out a laugh. The minute I laughed I felt anger coming from my beast.
“No.” My beast growled inside at me and I frowned.
“Hmm, okay. I was going to ask what you were going to do withi Avalynn if she was your mate. Guess it doesn’t really matter then.” He shrugged.
“If she was my mate I would still have her.” I felt my beast perk up and it had me now second guessing myself. Was Candace my mate? She couldn’t be, right?
“Wrong. Very wrong. She absolutely without a doubt is our mate.” He told me.
“Well, why haven’t we claimed her as ours? Why wasn’t there a mate bond pull? How come we didn’t show her she was our mate?” / questioned him.
“That is because of you and your one-track mind. She knows you are her mate. Well, maybe not for sure, but her Lycan is curious about us. She knows what we have done too. She was unsure of us. Do you blame her? Look at us and all the horrible things we have done. If she is our mate, she will be drug into everything and be caught up in everything we have done. We will reject her and tell her that she deserves a better mate than us. That we can never give her what she needs or deserves.” He huffed in my mind and I
rolled my eyes.
“Why can’t we keep her and leave her unmarked? / want Avalynn as our Queen. Candace can be my mistress.” I tried to reason with him.
“No.” Was all he said. “No?” / was confused as to why not.
“NO! We are not going to be that sellish towards her. She deserves the world and we can only give her a good lay every now and again, followed by some nice rooms. You’re unbelievable.” He scoffed as he seemed to disappear and retreat to the furthest corner of our mind.
“Look, I just don’t see the problem with it.”I called after him, but it seemed that he was already gone, again.
I just really don’t understand what is up with my wolf as of recently. It is like he is too good for our
mission to conquer the entire Northern and Southern Territories. He was up for killing our family who had treated us like dirt. He was up for killing the entire witch family that tried to go against us. Up until recently, he was down with everything we had done. It wasn’t until we lost Avalynn that he changed. Maybe he just misses her and needs her. He would get better, I was sure of it. I, however, was not going to reject Candace. She was mine and I would be hers, until my dying breath or just until I got bored with her. Whatever comes first.
“You will f*****g reject her, Dexter, tonight.” He came flying forward again,
“Fine, fine. Just go back to hiding again.” He retreated and I looked back over to Candace. She was standing up and clearing the tables off, tossing trash in the bins.
How the hell did I get matched with a lowly kitchen staff member? Doesn’t matter, I guess. I stood and made my way over to her. When I approached, I felt the pull for her. I knew it was because my beast was back and peering through my eyes, looking at her. I felt his need for her and his heartache at having to reject her
“Good evening, Candace. Care to join me on an evening stroll?” | outstretched my hand to her and hoped that she would take it on her own.
She was nervous but she smiled at me. “I would love to. It would be an honor, Your Grace.”
Her hand slipped into my own as I led her away from her duties. No one said anything but all eyes were on us. I led her outside where the sun still shone above. It wouldn’t be dark for another few hours. She was really truly beautiful. I really did not want to reject her
“You have to.” My beast pushed. “It is not fair to her. We have ruined everything.” “That is not true. We can still have it all. Does she know that she is our mate?” / asked him.
“Yes, well, she suspects you are still wearing the herbal blend that is masking our scent.” He sighed, “Just reject her.”
I looked over at Candace as she was leading us through the village. We were walking past a park, and I stopped walking. “Come on.” I told her and took her by the hand. We walked through the park for a moment in silence. As we walked together, I saw that she kept glancing up in my direction. We walked through a garden and I stopped at a bench and sat down. patting the seat next to me. She sat and I looked past her at a rose in full bloom.
“Candace.” I said her name softly as her beautiful eyes gazed up at me. She pulled her bottom lip into her mouth, biting on it. “There is something you should know.”
“What is it?” She asked, never looking away from me. “Well, you are my mate?” I told her.
Her eyes widened in shock and she frowned “What? How do you know this? I thought that we were supposed to feel a pull or something.”
“I have my scent hidden. Do you feel anything for me?” I questioned.
“Now that you mention it, yes. I could never put my finger on it, but yes.” She seemed hopeful.” know who you are, I have heard of everything that you have done. I do not care what you’ve done. You can change.” Her hand landed on my own and I felt the pain in my heart ripping through me. An uneasy feeling in my stomach gathered as I looked at her hand, then back up to her.
“I can’t change. I am who I am. I have done terrible things. If I am not victorious during this war, I will be executed. If you are my mate, you will be executed along with me or die without me. So, with that
said.”
She cut me off. “No, do not do this.” She begged me with tears forming in her eyes.
“Candace, I have to. It is to protect you. No one knows. No one is here. No one will ever have to know that you were mated with me.” I held both of her hands in my own. “You would be better off without me, please trust this. If everything goes the way I plan it to go, I will be back for you. I promise you that.” I tried Nôvel/Dr(a)ma.Org - Content owner.
to reason with her.
“But we will no longer be mates.” She looked sad and I couldn’t bring myself to do this to her.
Suddenly, my Lycan pushed through and took control over my body. He shoved me back and I knew this would be the most painful thing that we had ever been through together. I was weak, our human was weak. “Candace.” He got her attention.
She looked up at us and she smiled at me. “Hello.” She could tell it was my beast by how my eyes were glowing. He shook his head.
“You don’t want me?” Tears began forming in her eyes.
“I do, but we want to protect you. You need to be safe and this is the only way that I know how to keep you safe.” He told her.
“Please, don’t. Don’t do this.” She continued to beg.
“Candace, I, Dexter, Prince and Rightful heir of the Southern Territory, reject you as my mate and future princess of my people and followers.” He said with pain in his voice. Candace sat there, crying next to us as I swapped places with him. Our heart felt broken, into a tiny million pieces. “Accept the rejection, Candace.” I told her.
“No I can’t do it, please do not make me accept it.” She responded. I pushed my aura over her “Accept the rejection.” She winced and a small whimper passed out of her mouth. “I, Candace, accept your rejection.”
Ileaned over and kissed her on the mouth softly before standing and walking away. I left her there to be with her thoughts and feelings. I needed time to be alone and my Lycan agreed. I will be back for her in the end, when everything is said and done. That is, if I live and make it out of here alive.
We shifted as soon as we left the park and took off towards the forest. We ran hard most of the night. We killed anything that was in our path. Animals, rogues, whatever stood in the way. We downed trees, small buildings and howled at the moon that was high above. I was just thankful our scent was masked and she would never truly know. She just knows that it hurts. She will never know the full feeling of the mate bond.
I wound up deep in the forest and decided to stop and take a break by the bank of a small creek. took a few drinks of water as I sat down. I really don’t remember falling asleep, but when I woke up was in my human form, still by the creek. I looked around and looked up at the sky. It was dawn, I think? I shifted back into my beast and we headed back to Brenon’s camp. It took us a few hours to make it back. When we walked in the door, we passed by everyone without uttering a single word. We went up to the room, slammed the door behind us and took a shower. When I finished showering, I went to lie on the bed. I was completely exhausted by yesterday’s events. I still had a few hours until I would be needed for training. Ryder could handle it on his own, I trusted him enough to handle it.
I fell into a not so great sleep. My sleep was plagued with dreams of my memories of the past few weeks. Horrible things I have done to get to where I am today. From the murders to rejecting Candace. They all haunted my dreams. I woke up a few hours later in a complete cold sweat. I sat straight up in bed and looked over at the clock. It was noon. I guess I had better make my way down to eat and then go train with everyone