I’m Just His Wife

He was not a rock. He was also just a human being, also hurt sometimes.

I woke up because of the gentle caress I felt on the right side of my cheek. I slowly opened my eyes and caught that hand caressing my smooth cheek. And who could it be? I don’t even let anyone touch myself!

Tsaka, shit! I didn’t realize that I had fallen asleep. Maybe it’s because I’m so tired.

I immediately frowned when I saw Xyleus’ face smiling at me. I clasped my hand and sat up. I looked around the operating room and saw the signage that the operation was still on-going. Wait, how many hours have I slept?

I glanced at my wrist watch and saw that it had been two hours since I had fallen asleep. Susme, what went through my mind and I fell asleep? What if your doctor Andrea came out? Edi even embarrassed me because I slept watching over it.

I sighed and stared. You really were, Darlyn! You don’t mind!

“Ivan was in the ICU. He’s currently in a coma so the doctors decided to deliver him there. He’s under monitor. He lost a lot of blood and an organ was affected so even after the bullet was removed from his body he still needed it. observe … “after Xyleus said that I heard his deep breathing.

I turned to him and saw that he was already bent over. Ivan was in the ICU? Jusko, I hope Andrea doesn’t look like him. That was too dangerous. My whole system doesn’t seem to be able to cope when that happens.

One of my hands moved spontaneously and touched Xyleus’s trembling hand. He looked at me with a shocked expression. I just smiled at him and even tightened the grip on his hand.

“Don’t worry, Xyleus. I know Ivan will be able to overcome that. He’ll recover. He won’t disappear, okay? Just like you said that animal was a weed so it won’t die.” I said that to encourage her but I could see her expression grow even sadder.

“I can’t just hope, Darlyn. The doctor told me that there’s a forty percent chance that Ivan won’t wake up anymore …” I was surprised when he said but what surprised me more was the leak. of her tears.

It started with just one grain and later it continued. She was already crying. Xyleus was already crying.

I was immediately confused. Of course! Who wouldn’t be shocked when someone you haven’t seen cry in front of you? That you thought its heart was stone to the extreme numb. But … I thought wrong. Xyleus has a heart. He has a loving heart. And that love of yours was for her friend.

Even before I became friends with Xyleus, he and Ivan were already friends. Creed was also his friend but I know that he and Xyleus have a deeper relationship. Sometimes I’m even jealous because Ivan was always Xyleus’ mouthpiece whenever we’re together e. But that’s just the way it was. Ivan was so important to her.

Using my trembling hands, I pulled Xyleus for a hug. He hugged me too and I felt him squeeze his head between my neck and shoulders. She was quietly crying and sometimes I could also feel the hot tears coming from her eyes. I just sighed and stroked his back.

I understand him. I also have a friend whose life was in danger now so I also seem to be weakening. I wanted to cry but I remember what Andrea told me then not to cry because it was as if I was giving up on my life when I cried.

“Darlyn, crying isn’t just for weak people. Yes, it’s not bad to cry but just force yourself not to cry because it’s a sign of surrender. And surrender was bad. You can’t give up. You can’t be weak. You have to get up. and be strong for the people who love you. Where will you cry if you have many opportunities to smile, won’t you? ”

I still remember when he said those words. Her smile was beautiful although I could see the sadness pass in her eyes.

Suddenly I saw the OR door open so I immediately let go of Xyleus. I stood up and quickly addressed the doctor to get out of there.

“Doc? How’s my friend? was she okay? Does she need to be taken to the ICU?” my questioning in succession. Shit! I’m nervous!

The doctor removed his mask before speaking. “No. She’s stable now. The bullet hit her body only superficially. No internal organs and such were affected. She can be transferred to the regular room soon.” the doctor barely smiled at me.

I folded my hand and closed my eyes. I also felt the trail of a bead of tears from my one eye. ‘thank you lord!” hiyaw ko! I don’t care even if I look stupid. I’m so happy right now! I woke up and shook the doctor’s hand. ‘thank you for saving my best friend, doc.” I smiled promise.

“No worries. I’m just doing my job. By the way, I have to go.” the doctor let go of my hand and smiled at me again before passing me by.

I turned to Xyleus and saw that he had stopped crying. She was smiling now but I know she still feels sad.

I sat next to him with a drawn smile on my lips. Andrea Steinfields was really strong and I admire her the most because of that.

“Heard that, Xyleus? Andrea was now safe.” I learned my lively voice. There was no place for the pity I feel now.

Xyleus took one of my hands and kissed the back of my palm. “She’s strong, Darlyn. And I hope Ivan was, too.” his tone was sad but he was still smiling.

“Ivan was also strong, Xyleus. And I know he can get through it all because he still doesn’t want to leave Andrea and their children. The amount he has sacrificed to make everything that happened before happen so he just has to live. “He deserves to be happy and so as his family.” I want to trust that Ivan will still wake up. I am strong for Lord e. I knew he would give it to me.

And most of all I want them to be happy with Andrea. They deserve to be happy together. They have proven to everyone that they really were for each other so they just deserve to have fun together.

Just as I thought that they were star-crossed lovers. But no, they’re not. They were really destined for each other.

Even though they went through some trials, their love for each other remained. That’s what true love was. It waits and it sacrifices.

Rigella Andrea’s POV

It”s a beautiful place I”m walking in right now. It’s like a paradise I’ve only just been to. The air was fresh and I can smell a little bit of fragrance because maybe it’s because of the colorful flowers around. I can’t figure out … What place was this?

Even what I was wearing seemed weird. All my clothes were black before but they were all white now. A white dress hugs my body but its sleeves were long. I was also wearing a pair of white flat shoes.

I can’t explain how I look now but I”m sure I look good and beautiful when I”m presented in a mirror.

I have no idea where I am right now but I am enjoying and enjoying the place. It was as if I meant to come here because this was what I need right now. This was a peaceful and chaotic place. After what happened earlier, I want to, at least, rest and relax myself and this place will be my refuge for a while.

I don’t want to be in a chaos again. I’m getting so tired of that. And now that it”s all over it”s time maybe for me to rest.

I didn’t even think then that it would be difficult to be ‘Andrea Steinfields’. I”ll admit, I miss the one I used to be. I miss Rigella who was even weak when it comes to love and can handle the trials she faces.

They have a lot in common with Andrea, yes. But Rigella was different for me. He was more special. Because even though he has been hurting for many years, he still struggles to get up because of the love he was fighting for.

I like the old me, oh no, scratch that. I love the old me. I missed how I smile like everything’s okay even if it’s not because I want my son, and every people around me to believe that I’m happy. I missed how I cry every night because of the knife-like pain that stabs my heart as always. I missed how I wish and pray for Ivan and for my son. I missed how I try to gain Ivan’s love through the things that I only knew what to do even if he only avoids me like I have a serious disease or what.

I missed those things that I usually do because that made me stronger before. For me the things I do were just right. I can’t be called desperate or masochistic because I just did what was necessary to somehow get rid of the pain I was feeling and get the only thing I wanted, Ivan’s love.Content (C) Nôv/elDra/ma.Org.

It”s not bad for me to do those because I have a right. I am human e. I didn’t care what anyone else said then, even though they knew Ivan and I were happy. I also don’t care if anyone sees me cry because it’s free. Tears were the only way I could reduce the pain I was feeling.

But I have changed a lot since I became Andrea Steinfields. I was suddenly numb for no apparent reason. I was enveloped in a rage that motivated me to do things I had never been able to do before. I also became cruel to everything, human-like, that blocked my path.

Rigella suddenly disappeared from my system. Yes, along with the change of my name was also the change of my whole personality. In a flash Andrea replaced Rigella. And that”s because of the pain and hardship Rigella experienced.

Despite my thoughts I smiled. I saw a flower that was slowly growing and changing color as well. Maybe I should do the same. I want to go back to the way I used to be because even I hated the new me. Yes, I do not get hurt easily but I get annoyed because I am so numb.

I want to be Rigella again. I want to be full of pain again, but a peaceful life. But I think that pain will go away. That will be replaced by the happy and peaceful life I have always wished to happen.

I walked again but after a while I suddenly stopped. I heard a familiar voice humming a familiar song. Oh, no. Could it be …?

My lips quivered because of an odd surprise that I’m feeling. Even though I felt like I was stoned to my feet I still struggled to walk my feet in the direction where I could hear the person humming that song. My hands were shaking now. I hope that’s him.

As I approached I gradually heard that voice more clearly. Singing has also replaced the way he used to just whistle that song.

~ You said it again my heart’s in motion