TWENTY FOUR
I don’t know how Lauren and I got home safely. During the travel, we didn’t talk because she was sobbing constantly. I know she’s disappointed and I can’t blame her.
“Lauren,” I called her as she quickly got down and ran inside. I wasn’t even able to park properly because I followed her. When I caught up with her in the room, I immediately pulled her and hugged her. I don’t know how to make her calm.
“I hate her.” She cried while hugging me.
I’m supposed to be the one who’s affected right now. But she is more affected. Maybe because of the disappointment she feels. I feel guilty and sad for her because I know that Carmona is like a mother to her before she finds out that she has a bad past.
“I adore her because of her kindness but she disappoints me.” She cried even more.
“Shh! That’s enough, wife.”
“How dare she do it to a young boy? How does she do that? To destroy a child’s future? She’s the real monster.” I can’t answer here. Because the past slowly came back to me. “Hubby.” She looked up while staring at me. I wiped her eyes, the tears didn’t stop flowing.
“Hmph.”
“Make love with me.”
“Huh?” I frowned because of what she said. “What are you saying?”
“She abused you. That’s why you are like that because of the trauma she imprinted on your mind. Let’s try to do it in a romantic way hubby. Let’s do the opposite.”
“What do you mean?”
“Let’s do it in a passionate, with romantic feelings. Kiss me, let me touch you. Let’s do the foreplay in a sensual way.”
“Lauren.”
“Don’t you want to get better? Don’t you want everything to be fine in the future? To give to the person you will love what she deserves?”
“But—-”
“Hubby, let me help you. You know when you feel different when we do it in a gentle way you will be ok. We never tried it so let’s try now.”
“But I’m afraid, what if I lose control? I’m going to hurt you again, Lauren. I don’t want to hurt you.”
“I don’t want you to suffer either, hubby. I know that every time you make me happy, you prevent yourself from getting aroused. I feel sorry for you but I’m selfish because I am the only one you always please. Hubby, you are the only person who always adjusted for me. Let me do something for you. I want you to get healed. Not immediately but slowly.”
“Lauren.”
“Please.”
“What will I do? What are we going to do? How do I start?”
“Kiss me.”
‘Never kiss someone on the lips, don’t let them touch you. Because when you kiss them on the lips when you let them hold and caress you, it’s like you’re giving them the right to control you. You, you alone should be the one who followed in bed. You should be the one doing the maneuvering. Don’t let them manipulate you because if the time for that to happen—they enslave you like what I am doing to you.’
“Hubby.”
“Lauren, I’m scared.” I stared at her while saying that. “I’m afraid not only for you but for me.”
“Trust me.” She cupped my face.Nôvel(D)rama.Org's content.
I just closed my eyes when I felt her warm palm. I couldn’t open my eyes because I felt the warmth of her palm relieve me. She gently caressed my shoulder which made me tingle. Until I felt her warm lips on mine.
She kissed me slowly. I don’t know how to kiss because I never kiss someone so I just moved my lips to follow her movements.
I felt like I was hanging when her lips parted and I woke up. She slowly opened my polo without taking her eyes off me. It fell on the floor and then she undressed me completely.
“You’ll be better.”
“Wife.” I raised my head when I felt her touch. I froze where I stood and didn’t know what to do. I have no emotions because fear is in my mind. But I admit that I like my wife’s touch.
She gently caressed my chest. Down to the abs, back to the chest. On the shoulder, on the arm, again on the body. The warmth of Lauren’s palm makes me lose my sanity. But not in the way I’m used to because it’s clear to me what she’s doing to me and—-and I love every touch she make.
“Undress me,” she whispered to which I immediately obeyed and remove all her dresses. When everything she was wearing was taken off, she also stripped my bottom. Now we are both naked.
She took me by the hand and led me to the bed. My chest pounds in excitement while following her. She laid down first so I followed her. I can’t explain what I feel. I feel excited and I don’t know why. And this is the first time I feel this.
“Kiss me, hubby. Kiss me on my lips. Kiss anywhere while I caress you.” I kiss her passionately on the lips. I’ve never kissed a girl before so I don’t know if I’m doing the right thing.
I feel Lauren’s tongue knock on my mouth. So I opened my mouth. I also followed what she was doing and put my tongue in her mouth. Lips to lips, tongue to tongue, saliva to saliva. While she was stroking my arm, my back.
I feel manhood alive. I feel my lust awake. But I didn’t break our kiss. I feel the inside of my mouth itch and just scratch every time Lauren’s tongue hits that part. She took my hand and placed it on her chest. I massage her bosom while kissing her. I don’t know how many minutes we’ve been kissing but I don’t care. I like what’s going on. I like what I do. I don’t want to leave her lips.
“Wife.” We both gasped as our lips parted. I feel hanged and I want more. I want to repeat our kiss again and again. I want to taste her sweet lips. Her saliva is insanely sweet like her juice.
She grabbed me by the head and brought me to her neck. I knew what she wanted to happen so I did what she wanted. I kissed her neck and stayed there for a long time. I felt her caressing me slowly as if urging me to improve what I was doing.
My kiss went on her chest and plays with her two mountains. I heard her moan while holding my head inviting me to suck and lick her more. I improved what I was doing even more and I could hear her moan and it was like music to my ears. When I stopped she was looking at me.
“Wife, I-I’m horny.” She gave me a smile and spread her legs.
“Enter me now.”
“Wife.”
“Don’t be afraid hubby, just feel the feelings. Kiss me while you slowly let me in.
“My heart is beating fast. I feel like my heart is about to burst from being so nervous. I also feel like I’m going to run out of breath with so much excitement. This is new to me. I feel like it’s my first time having sex. I kiss her and slowly buried my pet while we kiss. As my pet slowly sinks, I feel a strange tickle.
I am fully in and I can feel the taste. It’s a strangely delicious new feeling. I raised my head and looked at her.
“Thrust me, hubby. Thrust me, slowly, softly, but deep.” I nodded as a sign of yes. “Hubby.” She moaned. She caressed my arm and then pulled me closer to her. She hugged me and rubbed my back.
While coming out and in with her along the caress of her palm, I lost myself. It makes me lose my sanity but not the way I can handle it but the way I want—-to have sex in my senses and know what I’m doing. Every in and out makes me insane. Delicious. It’s tickling. Strange feeling. It tickled, not only my size but also my heart. I feel a bunch of butterflies in my stomach.
“Lauren.”
“Hubby, ah!”
“Lauren.”
I can’t say anything but her name. I feel her hand in my ass pushing it to her core. Even though my ups and downs are slow, the entry I make is intense. This is the best feeling ever. I want this. I want this again and again.
“Hubby, you did it well. It feels so good. Oh!” Lauren’s moan is like soft music in my ear. It’s like a voice that tickles my whole body. This is the best feeling of my entire life. If it’s possible for this to never end, I’d like to ask that it never end.
“Lauren.”
“Oh! Hubby, hubby, more.”
“Fuck, I can’t hold it.”
“I will come with you, hubby.”
“Oh, God.”
“Hubby, coming. Kiss me, kiss me.”
“Me too! Oh!”I buried my pet deeper and kiss her roughly until my juice gushed one after another inside her womb. I could feel the throbbing of her mouth without breaking our kiss.
We both gasped when we finished. I feel like all my energy is gone. My head was buried in her neck and I didn’t leave on top of her. I felt her slow caress on my back. I couldn’t speak because I still couldn’t believe what happened.
I kiss her. I let her touch me. And most of all, I remember everything. I managed to get to the extreme without forgetting. I managed to make it through without losing my mind. I was able to go in and out feeling everything I did.
My tears flowed when I realized everything.
Am I healed? Can I do it? Am I normal? Won’t I be a monster? Can’t I hurt anymore? I can’t hurt her anymore?
I think yes—-I’m happy. My heart is happy.
“Hubby?” I heard her call me but I just pressed my head closer to her neck. Maybe she felt I was crying because her neck was wet. “I’m so proud of you, hubby.” She stroked my back so that even though I still couldn’t understand myself, I calmed down.
“You did it well, hubby. You make it.”
“Thank you, wife, thank you so much. Thank you for helping me.” And there I sob. For the first time, for the first time, I was able to do what I wanted with the help of Lauren.