Fucked Up Family: Ep96
Once again, Lexi found herself laying back in bed, staring up at nothing. She could hear her parents and Molly. Her baby sister was screaming bloody murder, and Lexi didn’t need to be a detective to figure out her father’s weapon of choice.
“My Daddy’s fucking me so good!” the blonde girl’s voice echoed throughout the house.
Lexi wasn’t upset in the least. If anything, she was happy for her little sister. It was Lexi, herself, who wasn’t so sure she wanted the package she was currently carrying.
OK, that was a lie too.
I have to stop doing this, she told herself, making myself feel the way I think I ought to, instead of experiencing the actual emotions. It was safer the other way, she supposed, though not nearly as healthy in the long term.
When her mother had told her she was pregnant, Lexi freaked out. She felt literal insanity tug at the back of her brain. She wanted to run through the kitchen glass doors, out across the back yad, and sprint across the continent till her legs fell off. Anything but actually consider what she’d just been told.
When Lexi finally calmed down, though. When rational thinking reentered her brain, Lexi looked at herself and realized that she wasn’t all that upset, actually. Oh sure, in the moment, it had been horrifying beyond conception. But the reality was…
Well, she had kind of wished this into being, hadn’t she? And then she remembered why she’d felt that way in the first place. Her body wasn’t hosting an alien being, a destroyer of worlds. It was the physical representation of her love for Austin. And that? Well it was kind of awesome, actually.
Lexi saw some movement by her door. She looked up and saw Austin, himself, standing there, staring at her with nothing but adoration.
“You’re so fucking beautiful, you know that,” Austin said.
“If you give me a speech about my pregnant glow, I’ll cut your cock off and shove it up your own ass,” Lexi snarled.
“Holy fuck, sis,” Austin said, stepping back out of the door frame, “I thought we were done with this ‘hating each other’ stuff.”
“You’re right,” Lexi said. She sat up and patted the bed for Austin to sit next to her. “Sorry. Old habits.”
Austin sat next to his sister. He put his arm around her shoulders. “For what it’s worth I really am sorry,” he said, “If I’d had any idea that we were going to… That I might put, well, that in you? I mean, we always talked about being out of control. But in my heart, I believe I’d have found a way to stop. I swear.”Content protected by Nôv/el(D)rama.Org.
“I know,” Lexi said. She rested her head on Austin’s shoulder. God, he felt so strong. She loved being surrounded by him. “You’re a good brother.”
“And you’re a fantastic sister,” Austin said. He leaned over to kiss her on the lips.
“My Daddy’s cumming in meeeeeeee!” Molly shouted from the other room.
“Apparently, Dad’s cumming in our baby sister,” Austin said.
“That’s the rumor I’d heard,” Lexi said.
“Are you upset?” Austin asked. “I mean, obviously you’re upset. But about Molly, I mean. I guess, that is, do you wish that was you in there right now?”
“Oh, my poor stupid, silly baby brother,” Lexi said. She kissed him on the top of his head.
“Hey, Lexi?” Austin sat up. He looked very seriously into his older sister’s eyes. “I know, ummm, well we’ve kind of danced around it until now. I just want to make sure, you know. I mean, that is…”
“Get to the point, brother,” Lexi said. She tousled her brother’s blond hair. She thought she knew what he was going to say. She had no idea what was coming.
“Right. Sorry,” Austin said. “I love you, Lexi.”
“Yes, I know, you’re my brother,” Lexi said, “You were kind of born that way.”
“No, not like that,” Austin said, “I mean, yes of course like that. But also no. I mean I love you love you. In a way that I’d never imagined before the campsite. In a way that I still didn’t feel after all that fucking. But at some point, after the workouts and that time you surprised me at my apartment and that crazy night in the playground with Mom… I fell in love with you. I’m sorry I was such a coward and couldn’t say it before.”
Lexi searched her brother’s eyes. She felt tears begin to well and she sniffled them back. He really meant it, the big dope.
“I love you, Austin,” Lexi said, “I’m sorry I was too stupid to say it before.” She leaned up and kissed her brother lightly on the lips. The cheeks. “But so what? We love each other. Great. We’re not going to get married. We’re not even going to stop having sex with other people, are we?”
“No, I imagine I’ll always want Mom and Molly,” Austin said, looking away like he might actually feel guilty. “What about you? Are you going to stop?”
“I don’t think so, no,” Lexi said. There was the family, of course. But there was also the promise of everything with Kim and Cole. Even Melanie. Lexi knew now she’d never cease. Couldn’t. Her love for Austin was more than she could imagine, but she knew the shape of it, and it didn’t fit a traditional life. It wasn’t built for something so expected and boring.
“So we’re agreed,” Austin said, “But you should know that I am yours. Truly. Like you said, I can’t marry you. But I would if I could. Everything else aside, I choose you. Not Molly or even Mom. You’re first in my heart and in my life. It’s not what I ever imagined I’d have. Honestly, it’s so so much better. And that’s never going to change. Even if you don’t feel the same about me.”
“I do,” Lexi said, “First in my heart. First in my life. I must be crazy, cause I’m totally in love with my beautiful baby brother.
There was that word again. Baby. Austin picked up on it too. “Is that you being clever?” he asked, “Baby brother?”
“Not funny,” Lexi said. She took a pillow and shoved it in her brother’s face. He playfully pushed it away.
“Wasn’t trying to be,” Austin said, “So, my long-time sister love, have you decided what you’re going to do about our little bundle of joy?”
“Yup,” Lexi said. She smiled at her brother, coyly.
“You’re not going to tell me? The father of your child?” Austin seemed legitimately distraught.
“I think you already know,” Lexi said.
“You’re going to be an amazing Mom,” Austin said. He kissed his sister hard, pushing her back into the bed. He was already reaching for the bottom of her shirt. The hem of her pants. Like he didn’t know where to start, just wanted all of it gone. “Time to start working on baby number two,” he said as he kissed her.