Come Back to Me

Chapter 64

Commonly asked questions:

Do you respond to private messages? Yes I do! I respond to 99.99% & if I don't respond to you, it's because my message box is flooded, so just message me again and I'll get back to you ASAP because I love to hear from all of you!!

What inspired you to create Calla? Calla is me in a nutshell. Everything she's said, I've probably said once or twice or 60 times in my life

Can you teach me Russian? No. No. I barley know English as it is, I have ADD and I will get distracted, and I'm a busy busy monkey.

What are your tips for people hoping to get famous/writing their first book? First off, don't write just to get famous. Write for passion! I literally just wrote what I wanted, and it seemed to kinda work out. Write books because you're passionate and make sure you're not too busy to finish these books. Also, for those wanting to get views (I know that's important) make sure you add AS MANY FUCKING TAGS AS POSSIBLE!! Make sure your book cover is EYE CATCHING, make sure your title reflects your plot and will draw people in, and lastly write about something new and FRESH (ironic coming from someone who writes Mafia Porn) but even if it's a cliché subject, add your own personal twist.

What made you write your books? So basically, I write about things I wish could happen in books, and like my ""fantasies"". I've always wanted a strong female lead who you really see flourish into this incredible person, so that helped in creating Calla. Also, my late brother and I had this ridiculous and frankly INSANE humor together, so I incorporated that into my books.

What're you like in real life? What do you do? Aside from making inappropriate jokes at terrible times, I'm 19 and a finance major. I like puppies and writing and movies (Star Wars, Star Trek, Harry Potter, etc.) I play softball, and played ice hockey up until a year ago. I had 4 older brothers. I like throwing

things at people, and I have really bad road rage. I live in North Carolina (Raleigh area) and last night I licked a sidewalk.

Is the "I Am Not A Prostitute" series ending? Unfortunately, yes. I don't want to drag it out because how many more adventures can Calla go on? BUTT I am starting a new book soon.

What's a different thing you do in regards to your books? Well. I make too many jokes. ALSOOO I reread my books quite often and reply to A LOTT of comments that y'all make. Trust me, I see almost everything ?

Can we get married? Um...YES!!!! I WOULD LOVE NOTHING MORE!!!

Who is Sinister based off of? WELLL, Sinister is honestly just a dream. He's everything I would love in a man (except for the killing/drugs & being a criminal) Sinister is strong, beautiful, and he would do ANYTHING to protect the love of his life. He's funny, and he is absolutely in love with this girl who just smashed into his life. He's everything I love and more.

When you started this book, did you intend to make it a series? Honestly, I had no idea this book would get this famous. When I first started writing, I begged EVERYONE to read it (yes I was that bitch) and I posted promotion everywhere. When I finally got 1k reads, after what felt like forever, I couldn't believe it. I always loved writing, because it's like creating your own little world. After over a year, I hit 1Million views, and this was the greatest shock to me. It's a great milestone on Wattpad, and something that should make you proud. After I started getting famous, and listening to the passion my readers felt for "I Am Not A Prostitute" and it's characters, I knew I had to write another book. Writing a book is a HUGE deal and it takes so much time, and care. But because of all of you, I knew I had to continue.

What inspired you to write? Life seems a little dull to me. I think we all deserve the excitement and beauty that reading gives us. I simply wanted to make life a little less dull.

How did you come up with Sinisters name? That is an EXCELLENT question. He gave me "Devil" vibes, because of how menacing and blood thirsty he was. It's such a unique name, and I knew that it just completely matched his personality.

LAST THING! I love you guys. Like literally LOVE. Your comments make me smile, because some of y'all are so DAMN FUNNY, and I love hearing from all of you. I would be NOWHERE if it wasn't for every one of you, and I thank you for your support.

***

I took off running towards Afanas, throwing my arms around him as I quite literally tackled him. I heard him chuckle lowly as he wrapped his muscular arms around me, holding me to him.

"Everything's going to be okay." He whispered in my ear, pulling away from me.

And I believed him. For the first time in my whole life, it truly felt like everything was going to be okay.

I turned to Rachel, her muscular arms were place lightly over her swollen stomach as she smiled at me, her green eyes lighting up.

I didn't hate her. I wasn't even mad at her anymore. I had to understand that everything she did...she did for a reason. Because when it comes to family, you have to be selfish. I knew she felt bad for lying to me, to everyone. But it was her selfishness that made her future with Afanas possible.

I smiled at her, giving her a quick hug as I stared at her belly. It was quite bigger than mine, she was farther along than I was.

"Giving birth is gonna suck." I muttered.

She nodded in agreement, "Yeah. That shit is gonna hurt."

"Do you know the gender yet?" I asked, my eyes floating back to her belly.

Her and Afanas looked at each other, "Yes, it's a girl."

I clapped my hands together in excitement, "Congratulations you guys. You should name her either Calla, or Garbage."

I felt Sinister walking up behind me, wrapping his hands around me as he kissed my cheek.

"Are you guys staying? You know...for good?" I asked, leaning back into the warmth of Sinisters chest.

"Yeah" Afanas grinned "we're here for good."

Sinister spun me around. "I have one last surprise inside for you."

I smiled, "There's literally nothing else I could ever ask for."

"Well fine I can always return it--" He started, but I had already run inside, taking the steps two-at-a- time.

I ran past the double doors, not even bothering to acknowledge the massive entry way or the double grand staircases. But I began screaming in joy as I walked into the great room.

Inside, was a massive saltwater aquarium, with a fucking shark swimming around.

"SINISTER OH MY GOD YOU ACTUALLY BOUGHT ME A FUCKING SHARK HOLY FUCK ME SHIT!!" I squealed as I pressed my face against the glass.

I heard footsteps approaching as Sinister chuckled at me. "It's called a Hound Shark. He'll actually get pretty big. You've been talking about a pet shark for the last few years and I figured...since this is our forever house you might as well have a shark."

"Noodles!!!" I gigged, watching as the grey shark swam around its immense tank, "he's perfect, Sinister."

I wrapped my arms around Sinister's neck, peppering his face with kisses.

He chuckled darkly at my excitement, patting me on the head like a little puppy, I breathed in the smell of his cologne and giggled uncontrollably. Pulling away from him as I pressed my face against the glass, staring at the cute little shark.

"You and my baby are going to get along so well!" I smiled, my breath fogging the glass of the immense aquarium.

"Maybe don't put your baby in a aquarium." Afanas piped up as he stepped into the room, Rachel trailing close behind him.

I ignored Afanas. "We're going to go for so many walks."

I felt Sinister glaring at me, "Calla, why didn't I just buy you a fucking dog? You can't walk a shark."

I shrugged, not willing to let them ruin my fun, as a thought came over me.

"What about Gabriel and Sebastian? What's going to happen to them? Do they know we're here? Do they know we're alive?"my voice started to fill with panic.

I couldn't lose them. Sebastian, one of my best friends who had risked everything for me. And Gabriel, my mother, who I would never stop annoying. They were such a big part of me, I couldn't afford to lose them.

Sinister placed an arm on my back, his eyes glittering down on me, "They know, Calla. I made the decision to make Sebastian the leader of the Russian Mafia. Although he may have been a traitor,

working for your brother, he has been one of my most loyal men. And Gabriel will be his second in command."

I breathed out a breath I didn't even know I was holding. "That's good. I'm really happy for them."

"They will do great" Sinister snaked his arm around my waist "they're coming over later. As a kind of last hurrah, though I'm sure we will cross paths with them again."

I nodded, and looked around me. This house was beautiful, and big. So big that I felt so small, even surrounded by my friends.

Sinister stared at me, his eyes wide with worry, and I suddenly realized that I was crying. I didn't know why. I should be thankful. Instead I only felt guilt. Guilt that Sinister gave up his life for me. Guilt that I made him give up everything, for me. For a little girl that had nothing to offer.

"You gave up your whole life for me." I stated, tears trickling down my face like rain.

"No, Calla." He raised my chin with his finger so that I stared directly into his beautiful, icy eyes.

I sniffed as he pulled me to him, holding me so tight, as if he thought I would drift away if it wasn't for his arms that held me.

"You gave me my life" He whispered to me "If it wasn't for you, I would have nothing. I would be nothing. You gave me my humanity, my humility, and your love. Don't ever think that I had to sacrifice for you, because it was you who gave me something, something more than I could ever ask for."

He pressed his lips to my forehead, "You gave me a family, Calla."

It was only then, that I realized he was crying too.

***

Our room was incredible. It was massive, with a huge king sized bed, and a balcony that looked over the shores of our isolated home. Gabriel and Sebastian would be here soon. And I couldn't help but think they were coming to say goodbye.

I didn't want to say goodbye.

Sinister came from the bathroom, wearing a dark shirt that ended at his wrists, revealing black tattoos that snaked around him. He started laughing at me and I frowned at him. What had I done now?

He motioned to my recently defiled sweatshirt.

Oh.

I had stolen, yet another, one of his white sweatshirts and wrote:

I'M FUCKING PREGNANT AND I WILL EAT YOU

I smiled innocently at him as he joined me at the foot of the bed, his hand intertwining with mine.

"I had a thought...about what to name our baby boy." I said, tracing the black ink that laced his fingers.

"I know, I already know what you're going to say, and I think it's a perfect name."

I stared at him, "How did you know? I never said anything."

He chuckled, "I know you better than anyone, Calla. I would be proud for our baby to be named that."

The doorbell downstairs rung through my ears and I felt dread pool through me. This wasn't just a visit...this was a goodbye.

I turned to get up from the bed but Sinister stopped me, holding my hand in his.

"I know it's going to be hard to say goodbye. But I want you to know that you have me, Afanas and Rachel. We will be here, with you and for you, always." He pressed his lips to my palm.

I smiled sadly, pulling him close to me as our lips met. My hands dug into his hair as I kissed him with everything I had.His lips molded so perfectly with mine, as if we were made for each other. His hands gripped my hips tightly, pulling me onto his lap as he kissed his way down to my throat, his lips burning against my skin. I raked my hands though his hair, kissing his cheeks, his neck, and then back to his lips.

I pulled away, leaving only a inch between our faces.

"I love you" I mumbled, holding him close to me.

"I love you too, flower."

***

I attacked Sebastian and Gabriel the second the door flew open. I leapt off the floor and threw myself at them. It was lucky that they caught me.

They both erupted into laughter as I refused to let go. Calla is Boa Constrictor.

"This place is fucking amazing." Gabriel commented as he stepped through the doorway, he pushed me into Sebastians arms as he took a few more steps.

"Thank you mama." I smiled, wrapping my arms and legs around Sebastian.

"Jesus Christ, you're really never going to stop calling me that, are you?" Gabriel huffed, trying to look annoyed but I could see the amusement in his small smile.

"Nope! Mush Sebastian, mush!" I laughed as Sebastian walked us into the living room where Afanas, Rachel and Sinister sat.

Sebastian untangled me from his arms and sat me down on the couch as he and Gabriel greeted everyone.

"I must say Sinister, you sure know how to make an exit. Everyone is completely devastated at the loss of their leader, and his little wife." Sebastian grinned at us, pouring himself a glass of scotch as he crossed his legs.

"How does it feel being the head of the Mafia?" I asked curling next to Sinister as he put his arms around me.

We spent the next hour talking about the changes being made to the Mafia under Sebastians command. He would no longer be in affiliation with human trafficking, and he was letting women have the same opportunities as men, to rise up in the ranks.

Afanas sat with his arm protectively around Rachel, every few minutes he would rub her swollen stomach, sometimes whispering things into her stomach that made Rachel laugh. It made me happy to see them together. To see Afanas cleaning up his drug problem (for the most part).

I remember how bad his drug problem used to be. Afanas had once told Sinister that the reason he used abused drugs so often, was so that he'd never be sober enough to realize what he truly wanted. Something inside of him had always been hurting. But when I looked at him now, his eyes were clear, alert, and sober. He was holding the woman he loved, with his child in her stomach. He looked, probably for the first time, truly, blissfully...happy.

Afanas caught my stare, smiling at me in question.

"We decided what we're going to name our baby." I spoke out, ending the comfortable silence of the room.

Everyone's eyes were on me.

"Please don't tell me you're actually going to name that baby Noodles." Afanas grinned. Content protected by Nôv/el(D)rama.Org.

I waved him off, "no no, that's my sharks name."

Afanas chuckled, and I felt the supportive hand of Sinister, rubbing my back in smooth, soothing circles.

"We're naming him Afanas." I smiled brightly.

Afanas's eyes went wide for a moment, before they were replaced with glassy tears. His smile was true and raw as he searched for words to say.

"You saved me when I didn't know I needed saving. Thank you, Afanas, for being the love and friendship when I didn't even know I needed it. Your love and friendship changed me, softened me, and even though I didn't know it at the time. It saved me."

A tear dripped down his face as I continued.

"I can only hope that this baby turns out to be like the incredible man he was named after."

Afanas was on me in an instant, wrapping me in his arms as he hugged me tightly, severely. He gripped me with one arm, and with another he wrapped his arm around Sinister. Sinister laughed at this, embracing the both of us. I couldn't help myself from letting tears stream down my face. This moment was more beautiful than anything, because it was us. The two men who gave me their lives, who saved me countless times.

I glanced up from our trio hug, to see a picture hanging on the wall. I recognized it instantly, it was the picture that used to sit on the dresser in Afanas's room. It was a picture of the three of us, on Christmas some years ago, the night Sinister proposed to me. We embraced each other similarly the way we did now. We looked so happy, so young.

If only we had known then, what life would be like now.

I wouldn't change anything. I wouldn't change the pain and grief that has massacred my life, because I had something so much better; I had a family.

I grew up with nothing, no family who loved me, or friends who respected me. I was simply floating around in life, waiting for something, anything to throw out a raft and save me from drowning in the ocean of fake love, and real lies.

Then came along these two men. These massive fucking grizzly bears, who loved me unconditionally with everything they had. They came into my life like a bullet through glass, shattered my terribly boring world, and replaced it with strong, pure love and indestructible bravery.

The room was silent, but I was Home. Home is where you hear the love within the stillness, within the quiet. And I couldn't help but beg the world for us to stay in this moment of beautiful stillness.

I felt movement behind me, and suddenly we were all bunched together in one massive group embrace. Me, Sinister, Afanas, Rachel, Gabriel, and Sebastian. My best friends. My whole world. The only people in this world who showed me compassion, love and kindness. I had been searching for my Home for so many years. I had fought, skin and bone, to find this place of pure bliss.

But now I know, Home is not a place...it's a feeling. And now I know what that truly feels like...

I Am Home.

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The End

Guys...you have no idea how hard this is. Writing the two little words words "The End" on a series I have dedicated years to, is so hard. I'm literally sobbing at my laptop right now. What an incredible journey we have been on. I have no words to describe what this series has done to me and what writing it has helped me get through. You all have been my biggest supporters, and such close friends of mine, and I thank you for your support.

I know it's sad to see these characters go, to feel the sadness as their story comes to an end. But what a wild ride we have been on!!! Finally, a happy ending that started with such a sad begging.

Thank you all. I would be nowhere without all of you. If you have any questions, feel free to comment or message me. I will try to put a "5 years later" chapter up for you all to see what the family dynamic has done to our favorite couples hahah.

I am not done writing though, I will be posting a new book with MANY chapters very shortly, and I really hope I can count on your continued support.

There will not be a third book to the series, because really, how many more adventures can Calla go on?

Thank you all, PLEASE LET ME KNOW WHAT YOU THOUGHT OF THIS BOOK AND THE OVERALL SERIES!!!!!

I love you all, thank you so much...

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Aleksei