My Emotionless Goddess

Ezekiel left the hospital and didn’t Know how he ended up at Lucia’s shop. He was in a daze the whole time trying to digest the words of the doctor. Three months? That wasn’t enough time until his daughter came to this world! Did that mean he will never set his eyes on his beautiful daughter’s face. Securely locking the results in the compartment of his car, he checked himself in the mirror and tried fixing himself before going to meet Lucia. He didn’t want her thinking that something was wrong. He smiled but his smile was do ugly that it resembled a scowl. Stepping down, he Made his way to the shop but just as he was about to enter, his vision blacked out causing him to stumble and knock a flower vase by the door. The case fell with a clang alarming everyone in the shop.

” Oh no please! Not now please.” He pleaded with himself. What wrong timing for his vision to black out? He couldn’t let Lucia learn about that but he knew at the end of the day he would have to tell her. He was reluctant to because that would be a huge blow to her. Remembering her condition, his heart ached most. If only he knew about his condition earlier, he would have kept his distance from her and not made her pregnant. What was good news a few weeks ago turned out to be his regret.ConTEent bel0ngs to Nôv(e)lD/rama(.)Org .

” Honey! What’s wrong?” Lucia rushed upon seeing Ezekiel stumble upon the vase. She was worried maybe he got hurt.

” Please please come back!” Ezekiel prayed inwardly. His eyesight was failing him and he was anxious about Lucia finding out. Just when she was about to touch him, he regained his senses.

” What’s wrong with you?” She softly reprimanded him, holding him arm and helping him avoid the shards scattered all over the entrance.

” Get someone to clean that up.” Lucia said to her secretary Who moved to action immediately.

” Why are you so clumsy? Are you feeling unwell?” Lucia asked, feeling his forehead after helping him settle at the sofa.

” Nothing is wrong, probably tired.” Ezekiel replied calmly, maintaining his composure lest she becomes suspicious of him.

” You should not overwork yourself. Take a break and relax honey. Life isn’t all about work.” Lucia advised. She was worried that her husband would end up collapsing while working.

” Okay.” Ezekiel meekly replied. In any case, he wasn’t sure for how long he would continue working with his eyesight gone.

” Why are you here?” Lucia asked. It was a rare thing to see Ezekiel visiting her in her work place. He always gave the excuse of not wanting to disrupt her while working. It’s not she minded anyway, just curious.

” Can’t I drop by and visit my Queen?” Ezekiel replied feigning being hurt by her question. Of Course he expected a question like that, he never for once dropped by her workplace just picked her out of the shop after work.

” No no that’s not what I meant. It’s just that I didn’t expect to see you here. You can’t blame me although, you’ve never stepped foot here before.” Lucia explained.

” I missed you so I came to see you .” Ezekiel finally said. But what is missing her? Definitely, at a time like this, he only missed to see her, be in her arms, have her comfort him but did he deserve all that? Afterall, he was hiding his condition from her.

” Awwwn ain’t you being too sweet today?” Lucia said blushing.

” Am always sweet to you.” He replied but those words came with a twist in his heart. He didn’t have time to keep her happy and be sweet. His death awaits him in three months time and the only thing he will leave her with is the burden of raising their child alone and eternal pain.

” How about we head home. I don’t have much to do here anyways.” Lucia proposed to which Ezekiel agreed immediately.

They were driving home and Ezekiel was praying fervently that his blindness episodes don’t strike during that time. He didn’t want Lucia finding out about it. He was able to hide his nosebleeds From her for months now, he hoped he could still keep his illness a secret till his last breath. He hated the emotional good-byes and wished to never have one. After thinking, he had made up his mind. In these coming three weeks, he will use that time to spend more time with her and their child and then he’ll be gone before he loses his sight and goes far away from here. He wouldn’t let her see him in his dying bed, all helpless and weak.

As a Man he hoped he could keep the good image she had in her mind. That was his last wish.

” Honey, you seem distracted.” Lucia commented. She had observed that her Man was getting lost in thoughts frequently since he picked her up. Even a fool would notice something was wrong with him.

” It’s nothing just thinking about work.” Ezekiel lied with a straight face. He couldn’t let himself be discovered this early.

” Are you sure?” Lucia was sceptical about his answer.

” Yes honey, I’m sure, don’t worry.” Kiel replied.

They were passing when Lucia saw an ice cream parlour.

” Honey, can you get me an ice cream? I am craving one.” Lucia requested. After seeing that shop, Lucia had the urge to eat ice cream.

” Okay.” Ezekiel Who usually denied her eating ice cream, was very cooperative today. He stopped the car and jogged across the road to the other side where the ice cream shop was located. The line was huge and he had to wait. After thirty minutes, he walked out of the shop with a piece of paper. He found Lucia already asleep leaning on the chair. He entered the car and admired the beauty before him. This was the woman he chose to spend a lifetime with, unfortunately, his lifetime was too Short and he couldn’t keep his promises of growing old with her.

Thinking about how lonely she will be, his hands that were stretched to caress her were retracted immediately. He ignited the engine and drove home, occasionally stealing glances at the sleeping beauty. If he was given the chance to do things all over again, he wouldn’t have signed that contract that bound them together. If he could change things, he couldn’t have gotten her pregnant. What was supposed to be a happy occasion after labour would turn to loneliness moments as she takes care of their daughter all alone. He couldn’t give her the blissful Life anymore.

After arriving home, he carried her upstairs to their room and laid her in bed. He tucked her properly and stood to leave only to have his wrist clutched strongly by her. Resigning to his fate, he laid down and scooped her into his arms and snuggled. He might as well enjoy this moment while it lasts. With those thoughts in mind, he allowed exhaustion to take over and slept peacefully next to his darling.

Lucia heard his breathing become calm. She figured out he was finally asleep. Plopping herself in her arms, she looked at his handsome face. Something was troubling her deep down. ” What exactly are you hiding from me Kiel?” She asked no one in particular.